October 15th

I started this post before Oct 15th and then never managed to finish and post it. So I'm doing it now:

October 15th of every year is national Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. In 1988 the Congress, by Senate Joint Resolution 314, designated the month of October, as "Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month" and authorized and requested the President to issue a proclamation in observance of this month:

NOW, THEREFORE, I RONALD REAGAN, President of the United States of America, do hereby proclaim the month of October as Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. I call upon the people of the United States to observe this month with appropriate programs, ceremonies, and activities.

IN WITNESS WHEREOF, I have hereunto set my hand this twenty-fifth day of October in the year of our Lord nineteen hundred and eighty-eight and of the Independence of the United States of America the two hundred and thirteenth.

This is a transcription of what passed in Congress in Sept of 2006: http://www.october15th.com/transcription.htm

So every year we ask everyone in all times zones, worldwide, to join us in a candle lighting ceremony at 7pm on October 15th

This picture give me peace and hope when thinking about Hannah. Its been 5 years since we lost Hannah and we still miss her. Over the years, when I feel particularly sad I've written letters to her or poems. Here's a couple that I can share, but be warned, you'll probably need a kleenex or two.

Part of Me Is Missing

A part of my heart is missing because I gave that part to you, I knew I was going to lose you and there was nothing I could do.

They say there is always a reason but it didn’t ease the pain,I thought my heart was breaking and I would never smile again.

I asked a thousand questions and I cried a million tears,we planted a rose in your memory that will grow for years and years.

The questions still go unanswered and there are tears I will always cry,there is a question that will never be answered: WHY?

God must have needed another angel, the tiniest one he could find,to play in his garden and to teach others to be kind.

Some day little one we will meet and you will be mine again,till then play with your grandmas, god bless you and keep you, AMEN.

I Am Still A Mommy

I am still a Mommy, I was a Mommy from the start.

What makes me a Mommy is that feeling in my heart.

Pregnant I was, there was a baby inside me.

For some Mommys all it takes is to know, they have planted that seed.

There is a bond that takes place from the moment that you know.

Inside of your body someone special has started to grow.

My baby didn't make it, she is in Heaven up above.

In my heart I'm still her Mommy, I am filled with endless love.

Something happens to a woman when her seedling starts to grow.

Unless you have felt these feelings it is impossible to know.

She meant the world to me and I will never be the same.

All I need is for you to listen when I wish to say her name.

She may be gone but she's not forgotten, I miss her each and every day.

Could you imagine that it would be any other way?

What kind of Mommy would I be if I forgot my child?

I had planned my whole life around her, all the great things we would have done.

I may have another child, possibly another two.

There is something I know for certain, she will always be my first child, and I her Mommy too.